Diurnal

"The kind who will only come up strong, and stronger after she cries a bucket full of tears."

For of my many resolutions for this yet-to-be exciting year, is to actually learn and try to make peace with my past. Let it be with the person who came into my life, the things that happened, the people who broke me so badly, the incidents that changed my entire perspective of life, I'll make peace with them all. The developing self-acceptance part, is going to be my first priority I swear. For one, I'm the insecure type. And two, I'm really insecure. Finally three, I'm dead insecure. "Accept yourself and everyone else will come down to accept you too."

*lol it's already February Raudhah

Stumble then Fall

Let's make a deal,

Whatever you read here, stays here. No conversation about whatever I wrote outside from this one particular blog. Know me or not know me, everything stays here. Okay?

You know sometimes you get annoyed at the simplest of a thing. Me, I don't usually get annoyed so easily. Just when certain matters cross the line. MY LINE. Even worse, someone who never (or that's just my idea) cared about me previously came claiming he raised me up so well and hope I don't go astray from what have been taught to me. Asshole. 

How is it normal for others but not for me? What difference does it make? You fall in love. I fall in love. Everybody falls in love. Except, my love story is all the way weirder than yours. It happens at the wrong time, with the wrong person. Some people can outgrow the fact that IT IS wrong. Not me.

Get over it.

*guys, we have a deal

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Remember when they say, never make a decision when you're mad/sad? 

And never ever make a promise when you're happy?

Why can't everybody stop bullshitting some philosophies anymore?

I hate it. I hate it when I see things I don't ever wish to see. I hate it when I start figuring things out on my own. I hate knowing things I don't wish to know. I hate listening to names I don't wish to even know. 

*people need to seriously learn to step out

Perfectly Imperfect

You know some people just get emotionally attached to books that they eventually have all the ideas from the books planted into their minds. 

Like me, I always, all ways, get affected by whatever books i read. Previously I read Ellen's. And then I became so positive that for the first time I thought "God, I'm so hilarious." And then I read Silver Linings Playbook, I became so passive, so aggressive. I then read Crazy Rich Asians. Yeah you guessed it right. Boy was I so very kanchong! Can't you tell? This post is not an inch about books. NO!

Therefore, I think for once, once and once and ever, I'm trying to save you from a very heart-grounding heartbreak. I guess I'm just so bad at it?

*you're crazy and I'm out of my mind